Because You Missed Me So Much...

This goofy kid at work told me to spend my last 50 days wreaking havoc... causing trouble... being a total flirt monster, &kissing a few people I know I shouldnt.

And I Listened.

The time is getting near for us to depart. Everyone is talking about it! I filled out papers to still work for Disneyland as a Seasonal Cast Member. I'm really excited about it, because I need my share of California time. The ocean, the clubs, the friends. I love being around people... being that little socialite;)

I gotta start off by saying that my amazing best friend CC took me to see Green Lantern. And it was pretty decent. It felt short, not a lot of (comics) information, &everyone gave it amazing reviews and hype only over Ryan Reynolds. But I'll admit, everytime I saw him I whispered ohh my gosh... hes hot. I'm a girl, what can I say(:

This past week has been ridiculously fun. One of my only best friends Abby came to visit me, &I'm pretty sure everyone should know by now that I spoil the people who come visit me!... even if its just with my love(: And I might tell you now... if you follow me on facebook, I have about 200 pictures coming your way! We hit up the beach right when she arrived, and it was the first time I actually -played- in the ocean! I went pretty dang far. I let waves carry me. I laughed so much, I swallowed salt water, &I found seashells. That's what Cali is all about right? Abby &I came back and got ready to go out for the night. We took a little road trip to El Sugundo! To pick up the one and only beautiful Miss Camille. CC and her friend met up with us, which felt like a small Pahrump school reunion.We went to a hookah lounge (which is gross I know- but i'm all about crossing off things on the "Things I've Never Done" list...), met up with one of my amazing co-workers, little Javi<3 &then we all went bowling. Right down the street is the most ghetto bowling alley ever... and i LOVE it. The music is loud, the place is full, and its just a real good time. :D I even sang some weezy while I was there hahahaha. We went hard all night because, thats just how you do it cali style.

 ima go gettaa..

Abby came back &crashed at my apartment, so we could go to Disneyland in the morning... We spent all Thursday there because, it was pretty much her first time going! Crazy, I know. I'm pretty sure I wrapped up everything for her. I must say I'm proud of her... she was going to have an anxiety attack because I was making her go on the rollercoaster! Just for her to say afterwards... Can we go again?! It always happens I swear. &In return, she made me ride that scary ferris wheel. Abby and Jamie... We'll always push each other. haha, thats friendship(: We talked about anything and everything that day too. So if you're afraid of her knowing anything... too late! We came home, &got ready. for. the. CLUB!!! soooo fun. We went to Oasis in Upland, &we danced all night. I love her. End of story.... until I saw those blue and red lights in my rearview mirror.

I got pulled over. Finally, right? It was about time. And I was dressed like a skank. He even tested me for being under the influence... But I passed, uh, DUH. Funnest few days I've had in a while. I miss her already. I can't wait to be back in Pahrump... for a little bit. ;)

Nicki Minaj, I adore you. You make me... well, your music inspires me. I feel badass everytime I jam to Pink Friday. I want you to sign my boobs. I'll see you tonight. Sincerely, <3Jamiee

I was taking it slow, but I was caught off guard!

My days have been filled with many "winning" situations. Please forgive me for how many times this word will be written in my blog. But you'll keep reading it right? because I'm winning. ;)

I love my co-workers, please don't ever forget about me. -for those who know me, winning!)

I have conquered the Grad Nite!!! &I loved it! -winning!

Clarice "CC" Shirley accepted my invitation to join me on this years Warped Tour. - WINNING.

I rented a wheelchair from Disneyland. EPIC. -isnt it obvious? winning.

I saw Wendy Darling! -charlie sheen would wanna do her. winning!

Mother Dearest sent me an arrangement of chocolate. -ten pounds heavier and I'm still winning.

and last but definitely not least, its friday. and Katy Perry is winning.

Don't Lose Touch

June 13, 2011

I am struggling but surviving, cause I will persevere.

I woke up yesterday with pain in my lower back. I took way too many pain meds yesterday with no food, (clap for my stupidity) and threw up alot. I don't know what really happened, so I'm going to the chiropractor today. It can't affect my World Series Attitude though. (:

My dreams have been quite interesting these past days... I have dreamt up a crazy situation in which at least one "lover" of my past has been in, they are pretty amusing but at the same time I am questioning my sanity! There is way too much tossing and turning with this stupid back pain:/ I don't even eat chicken before bed. Isn't that supposed to make you have weird dreams?

Here's to the heartbreaking moment when you thought you were important to someone, and you find out you never have been.

I couldn't say it more honestly this time around; I'm in love. With my life. With God. With my hair! And for some stupid reason I've let three people try and change that order... With my newfound strength, no one is going to break through. Blame the ones before you;) So now, all I want is the open road. How many times do I have to say I can't wait for this program to end? I will be hitting the open road with an old best friend, and we'll let the memories begin.

I love Nicki Minaj. I told her I'd admit. I hope one day we get married just to say we f&%!n did it. ELEVEN DAYS.<3

You Gotta Dance Till You Ache

June 11, 2011
Its a new day in this big city. I want the rain to fall, you want the rain to fall, but these clouds are resisting. The tides are high, the waves are enormous, and I'm sitting in my room thinking what to do! I'm in California, I never thought I'd be here, and my adventures have been endless. There's a point in time where you miss who you used to be, who you used to be with, those old friends you used to hang out with, and all the crazy stuff you used to do. But for me, looking forward has a way more intriquing horizon. One of hope, strength, &love. So I'm deeply sorry if I shut you up when you start talking about any aspect of who I was... we wake up to a new day every morning for a reason... to wipe yesterday away whether good or bad, and make something count. This face is too pretty to always be looking down... my old smile is back.

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive... I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise... to fly.(:

I am counting down the days though. The thought of going on a new adventure excites me. What I will find? I'm not too sure! But by God's grace He'll make a new bomb plan for me, guiding me through all these crazy times like He always does... I'm pretty sure He's getting sick of all the times I keep changing my mind. No wait! Thats my mother. hahaha i love you ma!
There's a big to-do list I have, and only SIXTY ONE days to do it all. But i'm okay with that, California will always be here, and hopefully so will the amazing friends I've made. I admitted last night that I come to work whenever, early even, just to be around good people that will keep me sane. So thats a little bit about me, meditate on this:

Start Your New Day Today!

<3me

World Series Attitude

SIXTY THREE DAYS.

who's counting with me?

...lets have some fun.

Oh, Memories.

He was the Congregation's vagrant with an unrequited love. When your passion's exultation, then finding refuge is not enough.
She was the youngest of the family and the last to be let go.They decided they would try and make it on their own...

Oh, memories, where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known. How I miss yesterday. And I let it fade away. Where'd you go?

When July became December their affection fought the cold, but they couldn't quite remember what inspired them to go... and it was beautifully depressing like a streetcar named desire.
They were fighting for their love that started growing tired.

Oh, memories, where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known. How I miss yesterday. And I let it fade away. Don't fade away...

Money lost momentum and the bills were piling high. Then the smile, it finally faded from the apple of their eye. They were young and independent, and they thought they had it planned.
Should've known right from the start you can't predict the end...
-Panic at the Disco


Here's to all the things we failed to do :X<3

Look Back With A Laugh, Move Forward With A Smile

Everything's Legit

You got me thinkin twice to just breathe. Then you say I won't survive if I leave? But I got a couple of tricks up my sleeve... I no longer need your attention, at ease.
It's a joke, it's a game, Why am I still keeping score? I'm in pain, I'm ashamed.

I'm a woman, hear me roar.
-Nicki Minaj

My Subconscious State Of Mind

resides here.

Just Saying...

I pretty much forgot that I had this. Alot of people follow my facebook, but thats too dramatic;) so here I am, back with my blog.

Well lets start with that one. "Drama." We all know the people who swear up and down that they hate drama. Why don't we all just admit we love it? Its fun, it kills time, and it makes our days go by so much faster. Just saying,.(:

I've become quite sheltered. Ever since my breakups, my parties, my lifechanging decisions, and the whirlwinds I've caused, I've seemed to create a shell. Its not the coldhearted, bitter, bitchy type that happens to alot of people. Its more of a lack of... seriousness. I like fooling people about everything, all the way down to my age. Why not? Its fun, it kills time, and it makes our days go by so much faster. Just saying,.(:

This explanation is simply for the ones that take everything they see or hear from me so seriously. I swear I'm gonna give my mom a heart attack one day. But if it were serious [like moving to Carson City!!!!] you'd hear me say it with all the sincerity and excitement in my voice.
I hope everyone will continue to read my blogs, because they're gonna happen more and more. &Less and less on Facebook. I love you all &remember to radiate love...Just saying,.(: