Love is calling YOU.

Please watch and read.

There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You've been remade.

Another New Chapter.

Its time for... college.

I've been longing to go back to school for a while now, and its finally here! Today I went to my campus with Ashlee and found all my classrooms. First I must say: I WILL BE FIT! lots of uphill, walking all the way across my campus, three different buildings and stairs stairs stairs!! and Second: I was sooo thankful for regular desks... none of those desks that favor right-handed students! I am so thrilled. The bookstore was full and all I wanted to do was shop shop shop. I got a few of my textbooks and I can't help but peek:) I went to the mall to buy myself a messenger bag... totally college style. Now I'm home in Carson City where my desk is in my room, the laptop is set up, and the post its have come out:) I'm ready for a new year, a new scene, and new people<3

                                               Its time to live my friends:



Child:

"You Are Forgiven and Loved."

-GOD

What Did You Think I Would Say?

Hello, Sunshine.

Its early Sunday morning. The sun is barely rising so the noises from real life are gone. Its hush over the land... I love the western desert. I'm sitting outside my parents' house, watching as my dog scurries through what we would call our "forest", the neighbors' yards, and across the street. She is alot like her mother... curious and adventurous. Anyone else who "accidentally" lets her out of the house, screams and summons for her to come back. Not me you see, I know she's been waiting for this thrill. So she listens to me- I call for her and she comes back; she knows if she does not ruin this, there will be more chances to explore. When she finally does come back, she has something in her foot, she is limping... but she came back. She wasn't afraid to show me that she failed, and when the next opportunity comes to explore, even if that thorn is in her foot, nothing will keep her down. She knows where her home is, although she might spend days out in the wilderness. I love my dog, and I love myself. The adventure will never stop, no matter where I may roam.

This Isn't Hopeless.

Please just watch and listen. She is my role model and I have faith in her. I believe in everything she says, and I have been in dark places that she has been. But she will remain to say: Stay Strong.

xoxo, me:)<3

Who Says You're Not Presidential?

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive. I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise...to fly[:
I wish today it will rain all day. Maybe that will kinda make the pain go away... trying to forgive you for abandoning me, praying but I think I’m still an angel away. An angel away, yeah strange in a way. Maybe that is why I chase strangers away- they got their guns out aiming at me but I become Neo when they aiming at me. me, me, me against them! me against enemies, me against friends... somehow they both seem to become one. A sea full of sharks and they all smell blood! they start coming and I start rising, must be surprising, I’m just summising.
I win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher
more fireEverybody wanna try to box me in. Suffocating everytime it locks me in. Paint they own pictures then they crop me in, but I will remain where the top begins. Cause I am not a word, I am not a line- I am not a girl that can ever be defined. I am not fly, I am levitation- I represent an entire generation. I hear the criticism loud and clear. That is how I know that the time is near, so we become alive in a time of fear. And I ain't got no motherfucking time to spare! Cried my eyes out for days upon days, such a heavy burden placed upon me... but when you go hard your nay’s become yay’s- Yankee Stadium with Jay’s and Kanye’s!
get ready for it/I came to win!
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive. I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise...to fly[:

Crazed Ice Cream Days

Gibson Girl is smarter than you. She always will be. These are tips if you plan to be a guest in our location. These are our frustrations. These are situations where we force-smile until we're backstage &can laugh, rant or rave. So throughout our working hours, we run into idiotic, ridiculous, easily made fun of situations. All containing three elements: people, stupid questions, and ice cream. So here it is:

A FEW Things You Just DON'T Do At Gibson Girl's Ice Cream Parlor!

-Our sign says Gibson Girl Ice Cream Parlor, not Baskin Robbins. Enough said? I wish!
-Interrupting the interaction with my guest (who actually waited in the ridiculous line) to ask me for a cup of water is rude. kthxx.
-Never tell me, "yes that will be it" and then add on to that sentence "and a ___". that was obviously not IT.
-We repeat the order back to you for a reason. Please don't confirm your order, then receive it and stare at it because its "not what you ordered."
-Don't eat 3/4 of your ice cream then "drop it" and demand a new one. Your jeans are already scared enough.
-If I say hello, you say hello. Its common human courtesy.
-You walked up to my counter... but you will wait. Because I'm busy, and I didn't call on you.
-I can't say this any more bluntly- put that damn cell phone away!
-The price is going to go up if you keep having me repeat it...
-I am NOT a stripper. Do NOT throw your bills at me!
-I say, "please stay right here and I'll be right back." you nod your head and say "alright" as you walk away....
-We don't have milkshakes or soft serve- its okay if you ask, I'll tell you we don't. but DO NOT get angry with ME! its not MY fault!
And Finally, the number ONE!!! thing you DO NOT DO.

1. Never, I repeat never, stand in the preposterous line and not know what flavors we have. Need another translation? DO NOT ASK ME WHAT FLAVORS WE HAVE. I won't tell you. kthanks and have a magical day!

Happy Wednesday.

My Adventures are 100% sober.

This is True Life.

;)

First and Foremost, this epic day takes place on a special someone's birthday- my brother, best friend, and mentor, Mitch Medina. I hope you had a great birthday, but I know it can't be TOO true cause I wasn't there. I miss you bro.

Each day, random crazy stuff happens. But nothing, I repeat nothing was as epic as yesterday- so I blog. I woke up yesterday to realize it was my first day off in a long time! I was so excited, even though it was 6am. My roommates and I went to our college class, just to come home and say goodbye to my roommate, Laura. Brooke and I hopped in my car to seek out some bright colored hair extensions.... success! Thank you Sally's! We ended up all the way in Tustin, Ca. It was the cutest town, like most of these California towns... I want to live here so bad. After Brooke and I found what we were looking for, &obviously made it back home in time for....

**Drum Roll Please**

ENCHILADA WEDNESDAY!

Main Street Coworkers let me just first say, are ridiculous cool cats. Stefi, her boyfriend Ben, Daniel, Manny, Javi, and Allyson!! All met me at Don Jose's in Fullerton for some amazing mexican food. If you don't like a girl with a big appetite, then please, stop reading this blog. Hahaha! We all ate so much and throughout our luncheon conversation, "Thrifty's Ice Cream" was brought to my attention... something I have never heard of before! We all headed to Rite Aid so they could fill me in on this epicness- cheap, square ice cream cones. AND IT WAS BOMB!(: I had strawberry cheesecake, &it was soooo delicious. I must find one in Vegas! We all sat outside and talked, traded jokes, and took alot of pictures! (obviously.) After that, Manny, Allyson and I headed to the Block in Orange... AKA A MALL! I must say, before we got there, that we got rear ended... but anyways:) I had yet to go to one in Cali! The to-do list before going back to Nevada is getting closer to becoming complete.

I was in search of Wednesday's Main Event... Club Lucky's Glow Party! We found blacklight body paint, bright pink and purple makeup<3 and I just had a great day being outside shopping with a few great friends(: But it was time to get ready for the club... and now is the time to indulge in this epicness.

I painted Brooke's nails and met her crazy friends. Allyson came over and started looking beautiful. Here I go... I dolled up with my brown long hair extensions, clipped in the hot pink ones, caked on the hot pink and purple makeup, did it up with the red lipstick, and finished with the body paint. I painted a rainbow on my chest, and a heart on my face. REPRESENT.

i may be bad but im perfectly good at it

 We were ready to hit the town. Ally and I get to Club Lucky and meet up with mister MARK MCLEOD! whooooaa buddy this guy is almost too much to handle hahaa. Him and I rocked my dance called the Firework, its gonna go viral soon. :) We get our tickets, then meet up with more Main Streeterss.<3:) Melissa (stunning as always), My BEST FRIEND!!!!--> Steven(:, Carolina and of course CC, my sidekick and partner in crime.  And We Dance. ALL NIGHT. We Glow. We Drink (water, obviously.) We Grind. We Club.<3

I come home only to find out that I'm locked out of my house, but it was all good because of three maybe half drunk? college programmers sitting outside. Tori, Amber and Michelle kept me entertained for a few hours until Amber finally told me that Fred the awesome security guy could let me in! hahaha. Good times though, those girls were really entertaining. Ally crashed at my place, &overall it was a long, well worth it wednesday!

Today is recovery day. The extensions are out, the makeup is washed off, and I have 200 pictures to look through. I'm cleaning, packing, and trying to take it easy.

The objective of today: To say farewell to a legacy that has been going on for years. Harry Potter, thank you for keeping the Wizard World alive for so many years. You are EPIC. I'm off to get ready for the midnight premiere.

Cali People- You rock my world. Every night.

Ptown People- Get ready. I'm coming home.

We are Warped.

 

Yeah, thats me in your far left corner screaming my life out, i LOVE hellogoodbye(: the lead singer took this picture on his phone,! so do I dare say it?

Welcome To My Life!!

My best friend, CC and I hopped in her car on Wednesday afternoon, and headed to the hottest part of Nevada. Las Vegas baby, here we come!

On Thursday we woke up (late like always<3) & dipped out for the best event of the summer :D I rocked all pink starting with my Vans hat, down to my Vans shoes! &cc rocked her hipbone tat in her tiny body (: This event was epic.... So many good bands, loud music, BOMB lemonade, great people, and of course just being there with CC. I'm so happy I took her with my two tickets I had!

I saw The Ready Set, which was so fun! Everyone was dancing and his music is ridiculously cute! I met up with a few good ol friends of mine, Buddha, Eli, Devin and her little sister. Pretty legit.

I also watched Relient K! amazzinnggggggg........ I stood by a 12 year old boy named Tate, who rocked out with me. Gotta love it. He said I had a beautiful name, hahhaha. He'll grow up to be a cute Bieber lookalike. :)

Hellogoodbye was my favorite. I got to meet them &it was awesome. The uke player is smokinnnn..!!! SO FINE!! They simply just put on a great show.

CC, Ale, and me met up to watch Less Than Jake and Against me! They were both CRAZY! Crowdsurfing and beer and wow. Rock n roll(: I love it.

A DAY TO REMEMBER=LOVE.

Enough said? I'm so short on words because this was such an amazing experience, that I've talked sooo much about it.

WARPED TOUR 2011 only results in one thing= WARPED TOUR 2012!!!

<3(:

Oh yeah, PS. Don't go the wrong way on Las Vegas Blvd, you'll run into Arizona;)

Femme Fetale(:

In the past two weeks, I went to two ridiculously different concerts, and I LOVED! both of them.

warning: this blog may be filled with capital letters, exclamation points, and exaggerating curse words.

On June 24th I got the chance to see one of the BEST shows.... cause when she says, "ITS BRITNEY BITCH!" she means it! That girl just killed the game. sorry ke$ha, gaga, or even katy perry! Brit Brit is going NO WHERE! The opening act was two twins sisters on turn tables, which did their job- to get the crowd pumped. Unfortunately, the next act was GOD AWFUL!!!!! jessie and stupid toy boys or something like that.... SUCKED. I wanted to BOO!! them off the stage. She couldnt sing, tried to dance, and had the most ridiculous lyrics, "all my hoes touch your toes!" and randomly broke out singing, "the roof! the roof! the roof is on fire!" STFU dude. Moving on....
I LOVE NICKI MINAJ. She really is an amazing performer. She rapped, danced, sang, &even did some ballet AND ninja moves. I was obviously standing up jammin out to my girl<3 I think Nicki did the coolest thing I've seen, and it was a collaberation of all her parts in other peoples' songs. Her part in "My Chick Bad", "Bottoms Up", "Up All Night", "Monster", &"Raining Men". It was really neat. She just looked like she was having so much fun up there. I'll be at her next show most def!

Britney, You are the Queen of Pop. Screw Madonna or whatever.... so many people criticized her because she has gotten older and possibly chunkier, but damn! that girl ROCKED IT. She had so many different dance numbers, amazing stage props like a hot pink floatsized guitar, and of course a car!! lol!! The best part was when she found an old man wearing a Britney shirt in the audience. She pulled him up onstage, he got a lapdance from her dancers... and then the crowd went wild when Brit Brit got on a pole and put her legs over his shoulders! ahhhhhh! She is so beautiful too. She talked to the crowd alot, &she's so sweet.
This was honestly THE BEST show, entertaining, loud and fun that I've ever seen. FEMME FETALE!
Only one tip- when going to the Honda Center for a concert, park somewhere else and walk. $20 for parking just isnt worth it... unless its Nicki&Britney<3

Because You Missed Me So Much...

This goofy kid at work told me to spend my last 50 days wreaking havoc... causing trouble... being a total flirt monster, &kissing a few people I know I shouldnt.

And I Listened.

The time is getting near for us to depart. Everyone is talking about it! I filled out papers to still work for Disneyland as a Seasonal Cast Member. I'm really excited about it, because I need my share of California time. The ocean, the clubs, the friends. I love being around people... being that little socialite;)

I gotta start off by saying that my amazing best friend CC took me to see Green Lantern. And it was pretty decent. It felt short, not a lot of (comics) information, &everyone gave it amazing reviews and hype only over Ryan Reynolds. But I'll admit, everytime I saw him I whispered ohh my gosh... hes hot. I'm a girl, what can I say(:

This past week has been ridiculously fun. One of my only best friends Abby came to visit me, &I'm pretty sure everyone should know by now that I spoil the people who come visit me!... even if its just with my love(: And I might tell you now... if you follow me on facebook, I have about 200 pictures coming your way! We hit up the beach right when she arrived, and it was the first time I actually -played- in the ocean! I went pretty dang far. I let waves carry me. I laughed so much, I swallowed salt water, &I found seashells. That's what Cali is all about right? Abby &I came back and got ready to go out for the night. We took a little road trip to El Sugundo! To pick up the one and only beautiful Miss Camille. CC and her friend met up with us, which felt like a small Pahrump school reunion.We went to a hookah lounge (which is gross I know- but i'm all about crossing off things on the "Things I've Never Done" list...), met up with one of my amazing co-workers, little Javi<3 &then we all went bowling. Right down the street is the most ghetto bowling alley ever... and i LOVE it. The music is loud, the place is full, and its just a real good time. :D I even sang some weezy while I was there hahahaha. We went hard all night because, thats just how you do it cali style.

 ima go gettaa..

Abby came back &crashed at my apartment, so we could go to Disneyland in the morning... We spent all Thursday there because, it was pretty much her first time going! Crazy, I know. I'm pretty sure I wrapped up everything for her. I must say I'm proud of her... she was going to have an anxiety attack because I was making her go on the rollercoaster! Just for her to say afterwards... Can we go again?! It always happens I swear. &In return, she made me ride that scary ferris wheel. Abby and Jamie... We'll always push each other. haha, thats friendship(: We talked about anything and everything that day too. So if you're afraid of her knowing anything... too late! We came home, &got ready. for. the. CLUB!!! soooo fun. We went to Oasis in Upland, &we danced all night. I love her. End of story.... until I saw those blue and red lights in my rearview mirror.

I got pulled over. Finally, right? It was about time. And I was dressed like a skank. He even tested me for being under the influence... But I passed, uh, DUH. Funnest few days I've had in a while. I miss her already. I can't wait to be back in Pahrump... for a little bit. ;)

Nicki Minaj, I adore you. You make me... well, your music inspires me. I feel badass everytime I jam to Pink Friday. I want you to sign my boobs. I'll see you tonight. Sincerely, <3Jamiee

I was taking it slow, but I was caught off guard!

My days have been filled with many "winning" situations. Please forgive me for how many times this word will be written in my blog. But you'll keep reading it right? because I'm winning. ;)

I love my co-workers, please don't ever forget about me. -for those who know me, winning!)

I have conquered the Grad Nite!!! &I loved it! -winning!

Clarice "CC" Shirley accepted my invitation to join me on this years Warped Tour. - WINNING.

I rented a wheelchair from Disneyland. EPIC. -isnt it obvious? winning.

I saw Wendy Darling! -charlie sheen would wanna do her. winning!

Mother Dearest sent me an arrangement of chocolate. -ten pounds heavier and I'm still winning.

and last but definitely not least, its friday. and Katy Perry is winning.

Don't Lose Touch

June 13, 2011

I am struggling but surviving, cause I will persevere.

I woke up yesterday with pain in my lower back. I took way too many pain meds yesterday with no food, (clap for my stupidity) and threw up alot. I don't know what really happened, so I'm going to the chiropractor today. It can't affect my World Series Attitude though. (:

My dreams have been quite interesting these past days... I have dreamt up a crazy situation in which at least one "lover" of my past has been in, they are pretty amusing but at the same time I am questioning my sanity! There is way too much tossing and turning with this stupid back pain:/ I don't even eat chicken before bed. Isn't that supposed to make you have weird dreams?

Here's to the heartbreaking moment when you thought you were important to someone, and you find out you never have been.

I couldn't say it more honestly this time around; I'm in love. With my life. With God. With my hair! And for some stupid reason I've let three people try and change that order... With my newfound strength, no one is going to break through. Blame the ones before you;) So now, all I want is the open road. How many times do I have to say I can't wait for this program to end? I will be hitting the open road with an old best friend, and we'll let the memories begin.

I love Nicki Minaj. I told her I'd admit. I hope one day we get married just to say we f&%!n did it. ELEVEN DAYS.<3

You Gotta Dance Till You Ache

June 11, 2011
Its a new day in this big city. I want the rain to fall, you want the rain to fall, but these clouds are resisting. The tides are high, the waves are enormous, and I'm sitting in my room thinking what to do! I'm in California, I never thought I'd be here, and my adventures have been endless. There's a point in time where you miss who you used to be, who you used to be with, those old friends you used to hang out with, and all the crazy stuff you used to do. But for me, looking forward has a way more intriquing horizon. One of hope, strength, &love. So I'm deeply sorry if I shut you up when you start talking about any aspect of who I was... we wake up to a new day every morning for a reason... to wipe yesterday away whether good or bad, and make something count. This face is too pretty to always be looking down... my old smile is back.

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive... I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise... to fly.(:

I am counting down the days though. The thought of going on a new adventure excites me. What I will find? I'm not too sure! But by God's grace He'll make a new bomb plan for me, guiding me through all these crazy times like He always does... I'm pretty sure He's getting sick of all the times I keep changing my mind. No wait! Thats my mother. hahaha i love you ma!
There's a big to-do list I have, and only SIXTY ONE days to do it all. But i'm okay with that, California will always be here, and hopefully so will the amazing friends I've made. I admitted last night that I come to work whenever, early even, just to be around good people that will keep me sane. So thats a little bit about me, meditate on this:

Start Your New Day Today!

<3me

World Series Attitude

SIXTY THREE DAYS.

who's counting with me?

...lets have some fun.

Oh, Memories.

He was the Congregation's vagrant with an unrequited love. When your passion's exultation, then finding refuge is not enough.
She was the youngest of the family and the last to be let go.They decided they would try and make it on their own...

Oh, memories, where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known. How I miss yesterday. And I let it fade away. Where'd you go?

When July became December their affection fought the cold, but they couldn't quite remember what inspired them to go... and it was beautifully depressing like a streetcar named desire.
They were fighting for their love that started growing tired.

Oh, memories, where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known. How I miss yesterday. And I let it fade away. Don't fade away...

Money lost momentum and the bills were piling high. Then the smile, it finally faded from the apple of their eye. They were young and independent, and they thought they had it planned.
Should've known right from the start you can't predict the end...
-Panic at the Disco


Here's to all the things we failed to do :X<3

Look Back With A Laugh, Move Forward With A Smile

Everything's Legit

You got me thinkin twice to just breathe. Then you say I won't survive if I leave? But I got a couple of tricks up my sleeve... I no longer need your attention, at ease.
It's a joke, it's a game, Why am I still keeping score? I'm in pain, I'm ashamed.

I'm a woman, hear me roar.
-Nicki Minaj

My Subconscious State Of Mind

resides here.

Just Saying...

I pretty much forgot that I had this. Alot of people follow my facebook, but thats too dramatic;) so here I am, back with my blog.

Well lets start with that one. "Drama." We all know the people who swear up and down that they hate drama. Why don't we all just admit we love it? Its fun, it kills time, and it makes our days go by so much faster. Just saying,.(:

I've become quite sheltered. Ever since my breakups, my parties, my lifechanging decisions, and the whirlwinds I've caused, I've seemed to create a shell. Its not the coldhearted, bitter, bitchy type that happens to alot of people. Its more of a lack of... seriousness. I like fooling people about everything, all the way down to my age. Why not? Its fun, it kills time, and it makes our days go by so much faster. Just saying,.(:

This explanation is simply for the ones that take everything they see or hear from me so seriously. I swear I'm gonna give my mom a heart attack one day. But if it were serious [like moving to Carson City!!!!] you'd hear me say it with all the sincerity and excitement in my voice.
I hope everyone will continue to read my blogs, because they're gonna happen more and more. &Less and less on Facebook. I love you all &remember to radiate love...Just saying,.(: